The Book of Ashes

Do not try to slide down the hand rail... 2:00AM

I went to lunch with Martin and Bev & Jo today. On the way back I noticed some stairs with a hand rail down the centre, the kind that kids would slide down or try grind on (slide down on a skateboard). Now what I found funny about this was the sign at the side which read something like...

""Do not try to slide down the hand rail as it has been designed to stop this kind of useage.""

So I looked a little closer at the hand rail and sure enough it had little rounded lumps every two meters or so along it. If you tried to slide down it, these would either bruise you really badly or rip a chunk out of your arse. I had not seen this kind of thing before, it was kind of interesting.

Another thing that I have realised today is why couples and friends in general do not get bored of each other. It is because we forget what they have told us. If we remembered every single story they told us then we would get sick of listening to them talk pretty fast. But we don't, the stories disappear, slowly fading away to be replaced by a new one (or the same one) sometime later. I just thought of this cause I was remembering stitting outside talking to a friend and sharing trusted information but I have forgotten one of the things we talked about. Doh

Development meal 11:16AM

Was an average days work in all. Paul has booked me in for an exam next Monday, giving me plenty of time for last minute revision which is sweet. If I pass three more exams I get a pay rise which is cool, but I'm not really motivated to do that. It involves lots of study in your own time and money is not all that important. If I got more holidays I might be keen...

So we went out for a development meal tonight. To kill time I went to Mezzini's with Damian and we got offered a free drink. I had to take a rasberry and coke, I have had so many of these lately, but anyway moved on to the Malthouse where I caught up with Crispy. Had another couple of rasberry and cokes and discussed stuff in general. I am finding that I have so many oportunities to drink in life that I didn't really realise how much I must do it. I am also realising how much I want for it. It is not so much the alcohol or the desire to drink but rather the need to relax. Let me explain here. When I was in University I used to be very shy. In fact I used to have trouble looking people in the eye without getting embarrassed or getting out more than a whole sentance at once. You may not know this if you saw me now but it is part of what I was and is part of what makes me who I am today. While at university I got introduced to alcohol and its ability to remove barriers. I slowly began to talk and relax and express myself while drunk and over the years brought that out into the sober world. I have gotten over a lot of the shy thing now and will talk to people a LOT more than I used to. Problem is sometimes I can still be very shy and quite often in large groups of people I don't talk so much unless I've had a drink or two to relax a little. I've been out to a few dinners lately. I'm doing alright but I always get offered alcohol, usually in copious quantities. Anyway our meal was at Rendezvous, a new place that has opened up on Courtney place. The food was excellent and we were all stuffed by the end of the night but I'm home now and am sure I will sleep well tonight

Just one line... 11:29AM

Tomorrow the training begins..