The Book of Ashes

God watched me this day (his version of what happened) 9:48AM

""What is this feeling inside of me that feels like a million little people with shovels, hollowing me out?""

- The Book of Ashes (17.09.01)

Someone will one day question my sanity. Most likely some do now. Few understand me. Those that do, do so on the acceptance that I act weird sometimes and that weirdness should just be ignored, it is part of the Ashness that is me. In truth the historians will note I was harmless. Some may even call me sweet. But when it comes down to the fact of the matter, all the evidence is right there, pointing in one direction. I am an open book, but this book you read is only one window I show to the world. Believe in it and you misinterpret me, understand it is just a part of the whole picture and you will begin to see. Only now do I throw down my shroud, as it serves no purpose any longer. Where once it protects me, now it hinders me. I stand naked before the world, ask of me and all shall be reveiled...

I have been reading the third Dune novel. It reads as above, filled with quotes from books that don't exist, it taunts one with prophecies that may or may not come to be and it fills ones head with riddles that are meaningless, most of the time. I believe I have copied the style a little, quoting sources that don't exist is cool and I do it. Speaking in riddles is cool and I do it. Prophecies are cool and I try here, but must beware, false prophecies lead to the path of the unbelievers. Believe in me now.

""I created a warm but cloudy and windy day today. As it began and events were set in motion, as on any other work day, I decided I'd take a holiday and just watch someone else work for once and see what they did. I choose this scrawny looking dude, as he was getting out of bed. Quite motivated was he, as he didn't need to go to work. He walked out the house earlish and went to see his friends, D & K. There he played a little on a web site he had created, giving it the ability for pubs to logon and edit their details. This was cool. Next he left that place and headed into his work. He was on leave so didn't have to work but had to reply to a party via email and download the weekends photos, he had been to a 21st of a friend and had them on his digital camera. Wondering down that way he came across a 5 cent piece and bent down to pick it up. It was a marker I had left there for him and due to that he walked a different path that day, happier than otherwise he would have been. He got to work, checked his emails and downloaded the images. He got a few people to sign a petition for an ice-skating rink in Wellington then headed home. He decided to go for a walk up Mt Vic. There he wondered for a while until he found the Velodrome. He had obviously never been to this place before, as he explored it carefully, noting that it was quite fully rollerbladable. What an interesting concept! Then he walked home. Then he went to physio. There a lady tried to crack his neck and fix his arms. He doesn't realise this yet but in the destiny I have set him he will discover a cure himself, he still has a lot of work ahead of him yet though. After this he went home. There it was quite boring to observe him. He read his book and did the dishes and some stretches. Later that night he watched tv and went for a jog up the hill. He had to stop and walk a few times as he wasn't fully in the mood, but managed to make it in 11 mins 26 secs, where his previous best time had been 12 mins 3 secs. This is getting close to my best time of 9 mins 56 secs but he couldn't ever beat that. Then he came back to his abode and cooked a Thai Curry Stir Fry thingie, as really it had no name, that which he made. It looked like it tasted alright though. Now as I watch he types and then will ready himself for bed. I bore of this man so will leave him now to return to my duties...""

- God