The Book of Ashes

On the topic of religion (ashes gets philosophical) 6:07AM

""Religion creates some of the most beautiful people and then proceeds to place insurmountable barriers between them and the rest of the world. Why can't everyone just love each other and not require others to believe the same thing as them?""

How many wars have been fought in the name of religion? How many people have been killed? How much time has been wasted by people trying to convience others of their own beliefs, their own human beliefs? Is one person or group more right than any others? They all have the same common underlying beliefs, to be kind, caring, loving, good people. Is this not enough? Is it more important to argue if the spirit is reincarnated in the next life or if it goes to heaven rather than going sking and acutally living life? Think how much life is wasted by people discussing religion. Life is to be lived. You can feel this when you do something, go new places, experience new things. You feel alive, you feel at peace, you feel like you are doing what you are meant to be doing and then you run out of money and have to come back to work. There is magic all around us. It doesn't require you to be religious, to have a belief in God to see it or experience it. One of Gerry's friends, who had strong Christian beliefs, had trouble believing that I could be a good person. Even though I have never stolen in my life, never been in a fight, I hate to lie and hate conflict of any kind and don't even like littering yet I am going to hell for my sins. In contrast a killer or rapist who admitted Jesus into his heart would go to heaven. After hearing this I wasn't sure I wanted to go to his kind of heaven anyway. The thing that I found interesting was that his goodness came from his relationship with God. The stronger your relationship with God the better a person you are. Does that mean that without that relationship he (or Christians in general) are bad people and only are good because they fear God? I am good because I want to be. I never ask God if I should perform good deads. I can't help but help others most of the time. Sometimes I don't act perfectly and then feel bad. This is me. I don't want to have to live in fear of the Lord to do what I do anyway. I don't want to spend hours each week singing songs in his praise and talking about him and Jesus so that their ego is stoked. I learn how to be a better person every day by evaluating my actions with people. I buy presents for people that are looking down, bake biscuits for my friends or just go talk to people. You know how to act within yourself without having to be told it. True beauty, true faith comes from actions, not saying you believe

The girls are moving away... 12:39PM

Now its Sunday, well actually just on Monday morning, the start of a new week. I've given up on getting up to see sunrises. Its just been raining or overcast every single day lately. The odds so far are 1 out of 4 days. Thats not really worth it when you measure the relative loss of the 4 missed sleep ins. Tomorrow I sleep in...

Today I went shopping with Tom and brought my first piece of clothing in about 4 months. I'm now back to 4 pieces of clothing to buy this month but I have my image consultant flown in directly from Aussie to help me out there. I so despretly need new clothes. I so despretly need lotsa money. Well good things come to those who ...... (fill in whatever there). I feel I am due some good things. BTW I brought a black jacket for $70, on special down from $120 which is not bad. Not sure if I like it yet, just need to wear it a bit first.

Well things have reached a nexus. I felt it all last week. Things definitely have changed for me but rather an interesting thing happened. I was out with Lee on Wednesday and he said something about when he had helped Fi look for flats. I said WHAT! Fi's looking for flats? He was like, nah, when I helped her move into her current one over a year ago. Now it seems that that day or the one before Fi & Amy went looking for flats and found one. They are moving away and will no longer be my neighbours. They are not moving far away though, just round the corner to Roseneath. But pretty tripy about the Lee mentioning Fi moving flats just as she did huh? Sometimes life is weird...

I have mostly written up my inventions page. It is going to be real cool. Just got one more invention (of two) to write up then I'll make it live. I give it a day or two. Currently there is too much too do and not enough time. How can I fit it all into these short days? More to write here about theories and stuff but its late and I've already typed out the coolest (and most in depth) email to my sister. She is going to be sooo happy to get it. It contains lots and lots of goss which I have never ever told her before, ever. I never talk to her about personal stuff. Just cause I'm shy not cause we don't talk. Right bed beckons...